Greetings From The Estate

WE MADE IT, YOU GUYS! WE HAVE MOVED TO THE FARM AND IT IS GLORIOUS! Very few humans about. Nature all around. Beautiful views. A sunroom full of plants. And I can see the moon from my bed when I go to sleep at night. What I love most is the stillness. No sense of …

Therapy: Part Deux

This second session began with a bang. I started crying almost immediately. FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON. I had big feelings before we even started, though. I went into the appointment expecting to discuss why I am so riddled with fear/have this weird thing with control. But that is not how this session unraveled. We talked …

The Night I Made It Rain Dog Food

Trevor is the best. For whatever reason, he is amused and delighted (his exact word), at all of these random antics of mine. Weird noises. Random awkward “dancing”. My overall thought processes. And the fact I am absolutely, 100% myself with him. …I pee with the door open when I’m at his place because that’s …

Therapy: Round 1

…oh man. OH MANNNNNN!!! My therapist is fantastic. Relatable. Easy to talk to. Very intelligent. VERY INTELLIGENT. She absolutely nailed some of my core beliefs, unearthing one I didn’t even realize I had until she said it: It isn’t okay to be myselfI am unlovable Andddd she caught on (quickly) that I have many, MANY …

Warm Hugs and Late Night Rambles

Lauren said my vibe is beautiful after I showed her a canary yellow wingback bed frame that I think I need in my life because it looks like a warm hug. I don’t think anyone has said it that way before. It was a great compliment, especially since, well, I am a human with mental …

But Are You Happy?

Facebook shared a memory/picture from two years ago when I opened the app this morning. I was standing in front of a bathroom mirror, smiling, at a rest stop in Illinois- Boston bound with who else?! Boston Drew. I was looking at the picture and my first thought was: “Wow. Yeah, I was way smaller …

Mental Health and Merkins

What you’ve missed: Merkins and where to buy them.I learned vaginas can be allergic to more than just latex.Upon my death, my best gay will make a diamond from my cremated remains, pop it in a tiara, and wear me to drag shows. Tell me that isn’t a great conversation piece.Aranea and Nellie have finished …

This Is Probably Why They Keep Me On Meds

Sunday. March 14th, 2021. The first time I’ve had all weekend to catch my breath and not sure what to do. So here I am. Working it all out with you on ye ol’ WordPress. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve had a great weekend. So many hugs. Great company. Wonderful food. ALL THE LAUGHING. My …

This Post Comes To You From Underneath My Desk

IN CASE YOU THOUGHT I WAS LYING. My face is wrong today. I am self conscious; therefore, this is all you get. Why am I uncomfortably sitting beneath my desk when I have a bed full of blankets that are way more comfortable to hide under, you ask? Because blankets aren’t going to cut it. …

Do People Ever Use Coffee Instead of Milk in Their Cereal?

What. A. Week. AND A BRAND NEW ONE IS STARTING TOMORROW! But, as my friend, Lauren, would say, “That is a problem for future us”. Indeed it is, Lauren. You wise, wise human. I had initially planned to post toward the end of the week but alas. It wasn’t in the cards. But I am …