Wintering

This book hit me. Hard. As a human who both loves cycles (the ebb and flow, beginning and ending), and is a human who has depression and anxiety, how could it not resonate? Not to mention how beautifully written it is. I’ve been having conversations lately-ish about how we don’t listen to our bodies. We …

Wally Smells Like Balls

In this moment, I simply exist. Depression? I don’t think so. My stomach has been wonky all day. I worked a few hours of overtime this week (in my pajamas, of course). And I am the parent of a very headstrong, stubborn teenager who seems to have to learn lessons the hard way. Sigh. These …

You Want To Know What I’ve Been Doing?

HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHI!!! How are you guys?! It’s so good to be back. The bean fields are being harvested (which is fun to watch!). A flock of twenty plus turkey hens are coming up to our yard to eat the food Trevor scattered for them say hi. He and I decided it would be a good idea …

No Extra Charge For Country TV

Oh, friends. It’s nice to be back. We’ve had a couple of unexpected changes lately. But now that a “new normal” is in the making, I am slowly making time, once again, for the things I love. Like writing blog posts to clog the great internet void. Therapy for me. Entertainment for you. What have …

Greetings From The Estate

WE MADE IT, YOU GUYS! WE HAVE MOVED TO THE FARM AND IT IS GLORIOUS! Very few humans about. Nature all around. Beautiful views. A sunroom full of plants. And I can see the moon from my bed when I go to sleep at night. What I love most is the stillness. No sense of …

Therapy: Part Deux

This second session began with a bang. I started crying almost immediately. FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON. I had big feelings before we even started, though. I went into the appointment expecting to discuss why I am so riddled with fear/have this weird thing with control. But that is not how this session unraveled. We talked …

Our First Lughnasadh

I grew up in what I could call a loosely Christian based household. Occasionally, we went to a tiny rural church. A few times I attended with my aunt, uncle, and cousins. Dad and I went to a couple of sunrise services on Easter. I even ventured to church camp in high school. But it …

Vaginas Are Not For Making S’Mores

…I’m in rare form this morning. The tea has yet to take hold and we’ve already launched into discussing various vaginal procedures women are subjected to. Before 9am. On a Friday. When my brain is barely functioning. A recipe for gold. One of my uterus bearing friends recently had a colposcopy. I’ve never undergone one …

The Night I Made It Rain Dog Food

Trevor is the best. For whatever reason, he is amused and delighted (his exact word), at all of these random antics of mine. Weird noises. Random awkward “dancing”. My overall thought processes. And the fact I am absolutely, 100% myself with him. …I pee with the door open when I’m at his place because that’s …

Therapy: Round 1

…oh man. OH MANNNNNN!!! My therapist is fantastic. Relatable. Easy to talk to. Very intelligent. VERY INTELLIGENT. She absolutely nailed some of my core beliefs, unearthing one I didn’t even realize I had until she said it: It isn’t okay to be myselfI am unlovable Andddd she caught on (quickly) that I have many, MANY …