Therapy: Round 1

…oh man. OH MANNNNNN!!! My therapist is fantastic. Relatable. Easy to talk to. Very intelligent. VERY INTELLIGENT. She absolutely nailed some of my core beliefs, unearthing one I didn’t even realize I had until she said it: It isn’t okay to be myselfI am unlovable Andddd she caught on (quickly) that I have many, MANY …

Warm Hugs and Late Night Rambles

Lauren said my vibe is beautiful after I showed her a canary yellow wingback bed frame that I think I need in my life because it looks like a warm hug. I don’t think anyone has said it that way before. It was a great compliment, especially since, well, I am a human with mental …

But Are You Happy?

Facebook shared a memory/picture from two years ago when I opened the app this morning. I was standing in front of a bathroom mirror, smiling, at a rest stop in Illinois- Boston bound with who else?! Boston Drew. I was looking at the picture and my first thought was: “Wow. Yeah, I was way smaller …

Mental Health and Merkins

What you’ve missed: Merkins and where to buy them.I learned vaginas can be allergic to more than just latex.Upon my death, my best gay will make a diamond from my cremated remains, pop it in a tiara, and wear me to drag shows. Tell me that isn’t a great conversation piece.Aranea and Nellie have finished …

The Great Lawn Mowing Saga of Spring 2021

Grandma has been worried about who will mow her yard since the beginning of the year. By worried, I mean full of anxiety. The teenager can do most of it; however, he is super allergic to poison oak, sumac, and ivy. Grandma happens to have a very healthy supply of poison oak on one of …

This Is Probably Why They Keep Me On Meds

Sunday. March 14th, 2021. The first time I’ve had all weekend to catch my breath and not sure what to do. So here I am. Working it all out with you on ye ol’ WordPress. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve had a great weekend. So many hugs. Great company. Wonderful food. ALL THE LAUGHING. My …

Long Walks With Alpacas

Thursday. Day 2 of 5 that I am off of work. And it is AMAZING! I didn’t realize how badly I needed a break. However, I will be coming back to a pile of work. Potentially an entire mountain range of it. But that is a problem for future Amber. Here in the moment Amber …

Leveling Up To Forest Witch

Are you one of the lucky individuals existing in the world that do not manage anxiety, and are curious about what anxiety can be like? I envy you. But to satisfy your curiosity, let me share this perfect example of what can happen when anxiety takes over. Super great and wonderful news- I am moving …

This Post Comes To You From Underneath My Desk

IN CASE YOU THOUGHT I WAS LYING. My face is wrong today. I am self conscious; therefore, this is all you get. Why am I uncomfortably sitting beneath my desk when I have a bed full of blankets that are way more comfortable to hide under, you ask? Because blankets aren’t going to cut it. …

Tortoise Jerseys

Happy February 13th, 2021. It is Saturday and feels like -4 out. No thank you. The next few days aren’t looking any better, which means the potential for cabin fever is high. Thankfully, I have plenty of knitting projects in the works- Katie’s scarf that should have been done forever ago (I appreciate your patience!), …