Greetings From The Estate

WE MADE IT, YOU GUYS! WE HAVE MOVED TO THE FARM AND IT IS GLORIOUS! Very few humans about. Nature all around. Beautiful views. A sunroom full of plants. And I can see the moon from my bed when I go to sleep at night. What I love most is the stillness. No sense of …

Therapy: Part Deux

This second session began with a bang. I started crying almost immediately. FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON. I had big feelings before we even started, though. I went into the appointment expecting to discuss why I am so riddled with fear/have this weird thing with control. But that is not how this session unraveled. We talked …

Our First Lughnasadh

I grew up in what I could call a loosely Christian based household. Occasionally, we went to a tiny rural church. A few times I attended with my aunt, uncle, and cousins. Dad and I went to a couple of sunrise services on Easter. I even ventured to church camp in high school. But it …

Vaginas Are Not For Making S’Mores

…I’m in rare form this morning. The tea has yet to take hold and we’ve already launched into discussing various vaginal procedures women are subjected to. Before 9am. On a Friday. When my brain is barely functioning. A recipe for gold. One of my uterus bearing friends recently had a colposcopy. I’ve never undergone one …

The Night I Made It Rain Dog Food

Trevor is the best. For whatever reason, he is amused and delighted (his exact word), at all of these random antics of mine. Weird noises. Random awkward “dancing”. My overall thought processes. And the fact I am absolutely, 100% myself with him. …I pee with the door open when I’m at his place because that’s …

Therapy: Round 1

…oh man. OH MANNNNNN!!! My therapist is fantastic. Relatable. Easy to talk to. Very intelligent. VERY INTELLIGENT. She absolutely nailed some of my core beliefs, unearthing one I didn’t even realize I had until she said it: It isn’t okay to be myselfI am unlovable Andddd she caught on (quickly) that I have many, MANY …

I CAN BUY ALL THE FOOD NOW

How I know I am an actual adult: I’m excited to have shelves for the pantry. …which, for those just joining us, was originally the broom closet that I decided to make into my pantry, though I’m curious about how much it will actually be able to hold. BUT WHATEVER! I ORDERED THE RIGHT SHELVES …

All Those Hours of Tetris May Not Have Been Wasted

It’s Friday night. …and I have no idea what to do after spending the past five nights with Trevor. The Teenager and I are both home from our separate vacations. Since returning from El Dorado (we took care of errands when I finished working), he’s spent a chunk of time in his room. Because that’s …

Act II

We’re finally alone. You, me, and everyone else who come here for…well, whatever they come here for. As you can imagine, it’s been a busy past few weeks with life returning to normal-ish. Although I’m currently on a break from both work and parenting, so I can slow down a little and write. The Teenager …

Breast Biscuits, Face Eating Ticks, and Planning a Sleepover

I’m surprised my provider keeps letting me come back to see her. Burned out from work and life, I gave myself a four day weekend this week. But I filled it with a dash of adulting. Mostly fun things, though. Anyway, Thursday was my appointment for ye annual lady exam. PREVENTIVE HEALTH IS INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT! …